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"..I dumped you again
I don´t understand
it´s happened before
can´t take it no more...

...these foolish games
always end up in confusion
i´ll take you back
just to leave you once again...

...i died in my dreams
what´s that supposed to mean?
got lost in the fire
i died in my dreams
reaching out for your hand
my fatal desire...

...i´ve failed you again
´cause i let you stay
i used to pretend
that i felt ok...

...just one big lie
such a perfect illusion
i made you mine
just to hurt you once again..."

"Fear of the dark, tears me apart
won´t leave me alone and time keeps running out

Just one more life, i´m so sick and tired
of singing the blues, i should turn my life around

Tell me why do i feel this way
all my life i´ve been standing on the borderline
too many bridges burned
too many lies i´ve heard.
I had a life but i can´t go back
can´t do that, it will never be the same again
and i know i don´t
have any time to burn.

They follow me home, disturbing my sleep
but i´ll find a place, place where they cannot find me.
Maybe i´m lost, and maybe i´m scared
but too many times i´ve closed the doors behind me.

Leave it all behind, cross the borderline.
Face the truth, don´t have any time to...
Don´t have any time to burn"

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